Emotions are pouring out like the rain that never stops..

what could be a long and winding journey..

2007-05-12T16:37:00.000+08:00

THIS STARTED AND ENDED MY THIRD TERM IN MY SOPH YEAR.

A SHOWER OF EMOTIONS, UNENDING CHILLS AND SMILES..

WITH MY DEAREST FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES AT MY SIDE, NOTHING WILL REALLY GO WRONG.

I LOVE LIFE. EVER.

revisions

2006-12-03T15:46:00.000+08:00

How come time flies too fast?

I sit here, thinking for the longest time of how will I ever get to manage my time more efficiently than what I used to. I know I am not the one you could point out if you want things done in an instant, but I can volunteer for you if you want it to be done in a couple of sleeping hours and in-between snapshots of myself. Now, choose. I don't want anyone to wait for me either, I just want to please almost everyone on my brain list, but that's not how it supposed to be. I am becoming tired and weary of the same scenario I get from going back to cara and returning back home after a week-long emotional and mental pressure from school. Now, choose.

I know, you do not even have a single nice option.

Going back to my fresh random thoughts these past few days, I guess I am fortunate enough to survive. I mean, how long will I ever have to endure that something that has been hidden for like, months? hmm. Actually, longer months than you think. Yea, I know this might sound kind of weird but frankly, I can't wait to finally face the real score between me and that. That? Okay, not now. Again.

Since I have been blogging here for quite sometime now, I think it's high time for me to share something a little offbeat from the latest happenings in my life. Like, um.. DREAMS.

Okay. here we go.. Dreams come and go, I remember when I talked about my series of dreams in this blog too.. Remember the dream guy of mine? ahaha, funny i do not even want to think about that anymore, but its really something memorable though. Let's say, I had this weird dream I won't dare to give off details about, but my interpretation will be spilled out here..
Haha, I think having multiple personalities do not necessarily rock, do you or do you not agree? :p Going back, I am going straight to my interpretation. Maybe, a hidden feeling will soon be revealed. By whom? That I don't know, but I just hope it would be coming from me. 'yon!

MAYBE.

Who knows, confirming a true emotion will give great reasons for me to feel the true spirit of the nearing season! =)

Ciao!~

change of plans..

2006-11-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

I don't know if i should be doing this post instead of thinking the next step to get away from this point of, well nothingness. I agreed to have given a person a chance. A defined chance on how to exactly move into a greater level of maturity. A much more defined 'US'. Not just a mere developed acquaintance from the past. I agreed, not focusing on the fact that we really have our own differences that indeed act as hindrances for a much more defined relationship apart from friendship. I agreed. The partial result? Impartial happiness. Divided emotions. A suspense ride for still an unclear portion of the future. I cannot do so much or is it just a wild excuse of me not taking risk for something that would surely be of good effect to me in the next days?

I don't know.

For the past weeks, i have been feeling quite happy for reasons nobody can extract from me. It seems everything is just taking place without much control, yet these things are not exactly the most nicest things that could happen. Of course, we can really not expect too much. As i have said in one of my older posts, i hate expectations. But somehow, it trigger me to self-assuming. How i never wanted to think fast-forward.. but in the coming days i know, i'll be doing a lot of that. a lot of wishings. never-ending dreams. mostly open-ended.

It is as if this entry made a lot of sense but actually it did, for me.
My divided emotion towards that person is waiting to be in a steady state.
In the meantime, we just have to let a wider space come between us.
Yea, it is not that much necessary for we are having a lot of spaces since the beginning, but it's quite unexplainable how i still feel the growing uneasiness within me.

For those whom i have asked opinions about my plan, thank you for the attention and advice.

Finally, i chose another alternative. Again.

God Bless everyone!
Ciao!~

term two 06-07

2006-09-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

okay, i'm here again. ahaha:p

kinda feeling a little rushed from the latest happenings in my simple life as a sophomore in la salle. well, could it be any simpler? i mean, forget the last term i had. i don't even dare to think about it. it was the worst academic term i had. :( but hey, i still have a lot of happier things to cherish during the first term of the school year. hmm.. i should say, it was a mixture of everything. from being so sober to getting drunk in the spirit of.. well.. let's say that four-letter-word called gush. labo. explicitly stating it---love. baduy. yeah right, it all comes down together.
to top it all off, i realized so many things during the last term. so many i couldn't still figure out why i didn't failed that bad when i should've. (oops.. i never should've said that, sorry] i guess, my conversation with the the greatest being up there before i have to do anything firmed me up to reach my average satisfaction of what i am supposed to be at. and because of that, i can never be so grateful enough. the term lasted short but it felt longer than i expected. some friends come, and as much as i don't want them to go.. some of them would, eventually. regardless of the reasons, i know we'll still be looking forward to spending quality time again, maybe not now 'coz we all have conflicting schedules and all that.. hmm.. hmm.. why is that so?

what i really like about ending a term is that it opens another piece of sheet. though it may not thoroughly burn all the heartaches of the past, or erase the worst marks in the course cards you got, but still it closes it and lets a new one start with a brighter light. hopefully.

since it is the second term of the school year, i wanted to make sure i started it right.
aside from having my index cards pasted with the right id picture sizes, i had my books borrowed, and some stuff being fixed with oc-ness. not the real me, i believe so. but i enjoy everything about what i am currently doing.

i miss my family again..

so much i wanted to say, maybe some other time i will spill them out again.

as for me, i should be happy this term.
never have to worry 'bout what others might see in me.
i am no different from others anyway, 'coz i am more more beyond.. ;)

wish us luck these great new scheds and profs!:)

cheers for the upcoming 4.0's! [sobrang asa pa..:p]

God Bless Everyone!

Ciao!

soo like this song.. :)

2006-08-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

*Trouble Sleeping*
[Corinne Bailey Rae]

It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that
I'm falling in love

Tell me I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
Don't say I'm falling in love
Some kind of therapy
Is all I need
Please believe me
Some instant remedy
That can cure me completely

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that
I'm falling in love

Tell me I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
Don't say I'm falling in love
Cause I've been there before
It's not enough
So nobody say it
Don't even say it
I got my eyes shut

Whoah, no
Whoah, no, no, no
Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that I'm falling in love
Tell me I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else

Don't say I'm falling in love

Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love

if i believe..

2006-08-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

If I Believe

If I believed in paradise

I'd swear I must be there

right now with you

If I believed in miracles

I'd know that one was happening to me

But if I don't believe in paradise

Then miracles aren't real

Then someone tell me what is this I feel

I wanna believe it's love this time

I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie

But with you I can't deny

if I believed in paradise

I'd swear

I'm there

If I believed in magic spells

It all would be so clear

'Cause magic spells must have brought you here

If I could see the future

I'd see if you and I were meant to be

But I dont know any magic

And tomorrow's just a dream

But something in this fantasy is real

I wanna believe it's love this time

I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie

I wanna believe it's love this time

I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie

But with you I cant deny

If I believed in paradise

I'd swear

I'm there

If I believed.

;(

2006-08-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

okay..

this might be too soon, i know. but i can't seem to control myself from expressing what i really feel.. what i really LONG wanted to say.. i guess. last time, i looked at myself and i still see a lot of pretensions. although, i always try not to argue within myself what i truly feel, coz it will only cause me much pain if i do.. but until now, i am not sure if i should drop all of my fears and just let my heart take its own way.. but i'm quite certain that this is the perfect time to let it all out, for the longest time, i never felt so much bothered. so, please let me let go of all these thoughts. *loong sigh.

fine. enough for the introduction.

one of the moments i've long been waiting to happen has finally flashed into reality. the moment where i could almost see everything in color, in abundance of faith and in the realization of my dreams. yet suddenly, i can't seem to be happy. why? i think, there are beyond more what i had expected, a lot of consequences appeared before my eyes and most of them are hindrances i should let myself pass through.. or maybe, i just found out that the real fault was on me.

i'v had the most precious time that day. if i could just stop and seize the moment. but then again, i can't seem to be more contented. convinced? yes, it hurts me alot afterwards. i don't know.. only thing that i'm certain is that i never really felt that way before. if that person only knew how much he means to me. ;(

should i still continue this? i believe i said it all in that last statement. i'm not scared to let this all out anymore 'coz i know this is the only way to let myself free from all the locked up thoughts i've been hiding for quite a span of time. sheez, if he only knew how i already felt the first time i saw him.. this might sound soo crazy err.. mushy, but that's the truth. oh, and did i mention why i can't seem to get him out of my mind? i guess it's true when they say that, you can never really explain in words what is definitely understandable in heart. hmm. that's how he became too important to me. and he doesn't even know that. am i good in hiding feelings? definitely but now. see? uncontrollable effect*

*sigh.

i'm pretty sure i have to say this: It is not completely okay.

i guess, we need to talk.

right now, confusion lowers a bit. i just need more reflection.

Above all, i leave it all up to God. He knows how to make me happy beyond anyone else..

Thankful enough.

2006-07-25T11:30:00.000+08:00

I thank God for giving me everything a family is. I can't be grateful enough for the blessings and outpour of goodness He is constantly showering upon us. But, we live not a perfect life. All of us are having our own struggles and trials in life. With that, i want to ask for your prayers for my youngest sister, April Francine.. She has heart problem. We are always praying for her wellness and in spite of what the doctors say about her condition, we sincerely believe that only God knows everything... although we seek advices, she is too young to undergo an operation. That's why we are really putting all our trust to Him and we all know He's there for us.. :) God Bless Us All!

Ciao!

2006-07-21T14:09:00.000+08:00

yeah. SABOG.

mas.

really not quite.

2006-07-21T01:13:00.000+08:00

i know i should've been sleeping now. haha it's a lame excuse either. but for not blogging for atleast fourteen hours makes me soo soupy [yeah, sabaw] and well.. unattentive to anything. right. bad bad.. so now i'm trying to fill in some thoughts about what have occurred to me in the past few days.. yep, another updating.. err.. sort of reinventing myself with a lot of stuff. you know, i did learn much from the confe talk i attended yesterday. Chalk editor was there, together with the bunch of sponsors.. yess. i love freebies!! [got new kikay products, lol.] and with a la salle alumni representing John Robert Powers Int'l. i was so enlightened by the personality development part of the talk and to think i was totally engrossed with the branded shoes and denims displayed infront.. ahahah. that was soo tempting, i mean, if i weren't too budget-conscious [i am, infact. always.], i would've spent all my savings to buy those! but good thing, that is so not me. yes. so, during the talk i am naturally glued, both eyes and ears to the speaker. she's wonderful. la sallians are indeed great in both their career and character. hmm.. after awhile, i realized i shoud've put here more about how proud i am of being a part of one great institution. anyway, before i'd sing our alma mater hymn [haha], i would just gladly like to share some nuggets of wisdom i picked out from yesterday's seminar entitled Chalk Talk;

"Whether you think you will succeed or not, you are right." -Henry Ford

"We attract what we expect and the world treats us as we believe we deserve to be treated.."

"We are continually faced by great oppurtunities brilliantly disguised as insolvable problems."

"Deal with Pain."

"Get out from toxic relationships." [Define Toxic. Oh c'mon, you know it. :p]

"Turning into an emotional vampire.. BAD." [i'm having enough of these persons lately.'

"Deal with handicaps."

"Most people who succeed accept and deal with their own handicaps in life."

actually, there is a lot to share.. but i guess, my eyes are too tired from the looong day i had. but, i enjoyed this day, really. :) too bad, my sister's phone still hasn't been fixed yet. how come they don't know how to repair it? they're the original manufacturer anyway. haay. pinas talaga, gulo.
pero mahal na mahal ko 'to. there..

i am hoping i can settle disputes inside. labo, but true..
nobody knows what i am really feeling right now.

it's just that it's not that easy..
but i believe everything will fall into place.

besides, God knows what, when, where, how and why to give something for us.

if it comes, then surely we deserve it. =)

ciao!

this.

2006-07-12T11:57:00.000+08:00

okay, i believe i have not mentioned why i love the rain.

well, i really don't find it too amusing but today..

i had fun with the rain today.

even if it poured down on me and made me look like a mushy something. lol.

i really enjoyed the rain today.

haay. *moment*

hahahahahahaha. why did i ever asked him about that? yan tuloy.. i knew it. but its okay. waaah. changes. changes. hoping. labo. :p

thanks really. stiff.

ciao!

rain rain don't go away..

2006-07-12T11:17:00.000+08:00

hi there peeps! :)

isn't it obvious? i'm wearing a big and crazy smile today. :D

haha. hmm.. this must be something huh.. hahahaha.. anyway, before you can try to get what is the reason behind this sudden mood of mine, i just want to share to you how the Legal Management Department welcomed me yesterday.. hmmm.. something worth remembering for.. here it is, the posted schedule says the external/internal shiftees will be accomodated during mwf/th only between 8:30-11:30 and 1:30-4:00 in the afternoon, and there it is, i found my name!.. whew. could've just imagined how i felt when i was staring at my name in the internal shiftee list.. [as if i am not really prepared for that] anyway, i thought hard enough if when will be the perfect time to take the shifting exanm.. err.. interview also.. so i naturally weighed down the facts that will contribute to my mood then.. haha! yeah, i guess that i will not be much energized in the morning [for some weird reasons] so obviously, i took the afternoon schedule yesterday [tuesday. oh how i love tuesdays.] and begun to imagine some weird questions that might be asked from me. hehe..

the day itself is so-o tiring. but atleast i got to see the Bro. Andrew Bldg [froshies' nest :p], finally. thanks to netty, our tourguide to that centralized canteen that nearly turned me into a i-don't-wanna-go-back-there-anymore frosh looking girl who didn't know where to find that cozy restroom.. trivia: there is four restrooms inside the canteen, two of those are strictly for faculty members only.. good thing i knew how to read. hmm. going back, after netty, alvin, and i got down from the frosh building, we immediately went back to LS right in time for our classes except alvin for he only has one class every tuesdays, also on thursdays i suppose.. after my last class in the morning [comcalc], i quickly had some realization before entering the LMG exam. whew. should i really be doing this? but i guess it is just too late to back out. besides, this is what i want. i really want. :) So, one significant realization was that i have no yellow paper in hand, neither a good writing pen. hahaha. there's just twenty-five minutes remaining in my clock before it strikes 1:30 so i went to the bookstore and found myself staring deeply to a glossy magazine.. [wonder who the cover is?] instead of doing my real purpose there, which is to buy the yellow paper and pen, i was stucked there in the magazine shelves. hahahaha! then, jicko saw me and teased me again for i was kind of daydreaming already with the cover guy.. hehehe! nah.. he's a hollywood actor. oops. got it. shoot! fifteen minutes to go.. i ran down the amphitheatre and after realizing that i haven't bought the things, i saw some of my good friends last term and ask for some papers.. haha! li'l parasite.. :p thanks guys. finally, i went up to the comlaw dept exactly 1:30 but no doors opened for me yet.. lunchbreak pa daw. i waited.. then,poof! i entered with a loud-beating heart with matching butterflies roaming inside my tummy. haha.. loL. i took the test with two confusing essay questions and made it a little long for them to think that i really want to make an impression.. sounded like it was never me. hahahaha. then the secretary said, i was also going to the interview right after i gave her the test paper. waah? ang bilis naman. i felt my nervousness doubled. so there, i slowly walked inside the chairman's office and really you cannot explain how i feel that time. he looked at my paper and read it carefully.. haay. if only he knew how much i wanted to be someone like him too.. a good-looking lawyer. HAHA. i'm so crappy. hehe. i finished the interview with a big smile and a happy heart of course. wait, did i tell you what questions he asked me? hmm.. let's just say, we both think alike in terms of explaining the purpose of law in our everday lives and how it never bored me and made me feel like it was a burden to study about.. hmm.. one more thing, i guess i told him the magic word. common sense. right. i never been so happy that moment in my stay in the university. i saw the large check right before my eyes and smiled as he said, "welcome!". yess! Thank God. He's the BEST. i will do it. aja! haha.

ciao!

la la la..

2006-07-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

welcome to LMG gail! :)

i'l talk about more updates later..

God Bless everyone!

Ciao!

so..

2006-06-23T12:47:00.000+08:00

what can i say?

it's a wonderful day.. ahahah.:D

i know na pala what God meant when He told me "that"..

this time, it's not malabo na for me...

haay. thanks so much.

i might as well prepare for this... and for that...

Good luck sa midterms!

iLove.. it.

ciao!

take it back.

2006-06-21T11:37:00.000+08:00

word for the day: lose

why did i ever get too close if we'd be nothing for each other?

do i seem over if i'd ask too much from the attention he's been giving?

why did i ever let myself seek inside his world and find out everything about him?

should i stop and just think of another way of turning back?

how did i ever get to fall for someone i didn't even realize how hard to deal with?

could i say i miss him dearly yet tend to look back if he's already there?

should i be hiding this for long?

what if we still believe that it is not really for real?

what if he really don't get what i am trying to show from the start?

what if he's really the insensitive one i never did knew 'til now?

will i sound pathetic if i'd tell him all of these?

do i seem crazy? [yes]

whatever i feel.. i guess it really won't matter. :(

i am so stucked.

have to get going.. even if it means staying..

have to show that smile again.:)

whatever.

2006-06-19T12:11:00.000+08:00

word for the day: feeling

today, i had a quick realization of what were really happening in my life. it was a blast having entered into this environment where you get to meet a lot of well-rounded individuals whose traits are incredibly compatible with yours.. then, you had a chance to get to know them.. deeper.. learned to deal with them... appreciate them.. narrow your choices of whom to keep in touch more often among them... then, give in to your thoughts.. unaware of how you neglect others.. get back to your sanity.. forgive yourself.. accept everything that has taken place.. live your weird dreams.. having to laugh at yourself... shift gears from the start of the course... finally, be contented that you think you found the right thing.... the RIGHT thing. BUT uncertain. UNCERTAIN in a way that you are in the middle of yes or no... stop or go... leave or love... ANLABO diba!?!? bakit malabo?? I don't know either.

Define FRIENDSHIP.

What is mutual about it?

Do you really understand what is meant if you say you're into that "friendship" thing?

I am just asking. tsktsk.

well, as of now.. it's pasig river clear.. [rights from ms. hizon's]

inshort, wla ng mas lalabo pa sa situation namin ngayon. boo. boo. boo. heheheheh...

whatever.

ciao!

haaay.

2006-06-07T13:11:00.000+08:00

Inside your Heaven
[Carrie Underwood]

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you
I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind

I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

getting over.

2006-06-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

"Shopping for shoes is much like finding love. Don't try to fit it in if you are not going to buy it. 'Coz when it feels great and you realize that you don't have enough money to buy it, you'll just regret having ever tried it on. Don't buy if you have reservations. You judge the best pair according to your criteria and own taste 'coz you'll be the one to wear it everyday. And lastly, when you finally get the perfect pair, you'll suddenly realize how important it is to find something taht really fits in and you'll just know that you just can't do withour this pair."

---got it from a friend's profile.

memos of yesterday..

2006-05-31T10:51:00.000+08:00

i have been thinking lately how to update this about my last summer getaway.. hmm, so i doubt if i ever had so much fun but hey, don't get me wrong about that.. i do had fun but doesn't necessarily mean bed of roses.. or the typical-beach-mode escapades most of you have been doin' in the past weeks.. i never did go there in the outside waters.. aww. loser? nah. instead of dippin' my body and getting burned under the sun, i played tennis with my family instead. hmm.. not bad. and of course, one of my greatest achievements so far is having to learn how to drive.. finally! yep, how i find it so-o amusing and well, yeah challenging. i am so happy though i have been scolded a lot of times by my parents 'coz of my all-time trait of being so TAMAD and the rest follows.. now, do i seem to be a role model slash ulirang ate for that matter? hehe. i don't know if anyone has the right to blame me for that but my parents who brought me up. i guess my apologies aren't enough to compensate my shortcomings and pag-iinarte. anyway, apart from being the type of daughter who always lack the ability to do complete chores, i do still have some sense of responsibilty. a lot actually. 'coz how will i ever manage to be an eldest of five children if i got none of the so-called responsibilities? such a tough word but i'm still proud to say i have been staying in the upper level of taking care of my siblings. haha believe it okay. i love them all my life. i'm running away from the main topic, going back, my first weeks of summer went too fast. i had flings..... wait... not yet through, with my emotions. okay okay. i know it's not clear. but let me put it that way. Seriously speaking, once again i've almost fallen for a friend. the name i would not dare to reveal but i guess it'll set me free sooner. i hate it when we started getting to miss each other because i know it can never end up to something flowery err.. romantic. enough about the clues. why can't i contain myself from bringing up this topic.. haay. the pressure of being attached drives me insane. do i really need to be linked to anybody? i just want freedom from complications but it usually do not happen to be that way.. to make it more interesting, i think i'm starting to feel that gush feeling of being inlove. yikes ba?! i think pa lang.. okay. okay. i should've not said it anyway.. but im tyring to be honest here as possible. no comments now please. hehe. as if i'd ever be punished for saying that. now let me rephrase my revelation awhile ago, i am starting to fall for that creature. hahahah. i call him my ----... oh ayan na, i've given so much clues there already. he's not supposed to be reading this.

for the last statement, i joined KAPATIRAN and have been assigned to four froshies and i really hope it'l be a great encounter for all of us.. i hope so!=)

i'll post updates of our meetings.

ciao!

starting off..

2006-05-29T12:56:00.000+08:00

my shirt reads, being subtle is sexier than flaunting yourself; i'm beginning to think that i'm poorly wasting two hours of scribbling my thoughts over again just to have some worthy output to update this blog.. i am but a nuisance to my family this past few weeks. i am but a stranger to my school. i am but a silent screamer to my [x]course to be.. i am but here to make an statement.. well, a bigger statement than anything i have out here. aside from having changed the skin of my site, i also had some changes in plans.. major case would be my shifting from the accounting program to the commercial law department. yes, i am still in cbe if in case you're wondering but yes, i presume you would be a little disappointed (sadly, very for others) in knowing this. now, i turned lonely again. i must be an hypocrite if i tell you right now that i am very much delighted that i'm leaving the label of being an accounting major, but i believe there should be a lot of moving on and acceptance. There must be a great reason behind. Anyway, i am much grateful i have experienced a lot from the three terms i lived within the confines of jpia. i regret having to announce here in my blog that i am voluntarily exiting the said organization. Sorry and thank you for everyone i have met and became friends with. You are all my inspiration. Honestly, if there is one thing i really feel low about, ut's the idea of leaving everything where i have picked up so much since my frosh days up to now. I know this might sound mushy and all but i just really want to thank everybody for making me feel welcome and for making me laugh over and over again.. amidst all the pressure and stress.. you guys are really the best i have ever met. i'm still trying to finish the resignation paper we drafted last week. i hate thinking about it. but i have to.

Lastly, although i haven't told you yet how my summer went (i'd find time for it in another entry), i would like to say that i am currently updating my latest plans and as i mentioned earlier, it started with the course shifting. hmm.. with regards to the inspiration (hope i found it), i am also currently deciding on that. hehe. i guess there must be a little complication but it'll be a wonderful term i hope so.. besides, who wouldn't feel thrilled when the profs in my list includes *zamora,*salazar,& comcalc fever.

by now, i should go back to school and charge my phone thru net's.

p.s.

i lost my balance awhile ago. good thing, there's only one person who saw me [he did laughed, bad guy!] but, as if i care, dude!
;)

ciao~

'coz its you and me.

2006-04-02T12:58:00.000+08:00

"a broken heart is the single greatest pain you will ever have to endure, in fact, the most hurt you can ever imagine: and the one who commits this emotional crime is not someone you hate; it is not even someone you dislike.. No, because the only person who is capable of breaking your heart is the one who holds it precariously in their hands,the one whom you have shared your dreams, your secrets, your tears..
- the one you love more than anybody else in the world.. & therein lies the irony..."

"Funny how two people meet, eye contact, hi & hello's, get contact numbers, exchange quotes, messages, even dropping calls, & asks how the day was.. then giving you a lift, stay for a cup of coffee, and talk 'til dawn.. Having meals together, attending mass on sundays, giving gifts on holidays, surprises on birthdays... Seems like perfect. But try to look deeper the moment they talk about how they feel for each other? Not that good right?.. 'Coz its a set-up like this, it's all about playing it safe, enjoying each other's company and forbidding themselve in a toxic called LOVE."

impressions...impressions..

2006-03-30T13:52:00.000+08:00

mmh.been to a rollercoaster ride these past days.. let's see, try to get a picture of what i'm thinking right now.. a little girl dancing cha-cha w/ her lost mind. waha, now forget it.. :p it seems i still have a lot of time doing this stuff.. when i should be burning my head again for the nearing finals.. i don't wanna term it as H E L L week, just to get away from being redundant.. oh just to share.. i'v been learning to crawl by myself now.. for the record, i just gained my independence from accounting lately.. yeah, i wouldn't mind if you won't believe. but hey, its cool 'coz i know its the sweetest the second time... waha! [tsk tsk]

Ciao!

e.n.u.m.e.r.a.t.e

2006-03-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

Limang pinaka-Nakakainis na bagay sa mundo

1. Makatapak ng tae
2. Matalsikan ng itim na putik sa mukha
3. Labasan ng softdrinks sa ilong dahil sa kakatawa
4. Madikitan ng taong may matinding putok

5. Makita kitang malungkot..

[it's from my twinsis.. 'te diane. sounds sweet to me. =)]

[now, here's my revision]

Limang pinaka-Nakakainis na bagay sa mundo ko NGAYON

1. Bumagsak sa Accounting
2. Marinig ang mga salitang "Modular, Accountant o CPA"
3. Umuwi sa bahay na parang walang problema
4. Makita ang "siya na talaga # 101"

5. DOUBTFUL AND DEPRECIATED EGO.

can i just stop and rest awhile..

2006-03-16T17:20:00.000+08:00

"..early yet to say what lies ahead...
..who are we to know.."

this week's quote:

"I should'v learned when to give my love, not to jumped in and subjected myself in detrimental vulnerability. for every move he and the people around him takes, i want to take one notch lower, back to those times when he's just one of my acquaintances.."

battle of the G.

2006-03-11T17:29:00.000+08:00

hei. i'm just quite alone now. 'coz i know God's watching me over. hmm.. how do i start? another entry. but this won't be the supposed continuation of my last entry.. i just dont feel like adding it up right now.. so, we had this sponsored battle of the generals held at William Shaw Theatre where it was participated by 17 different college schools that has its own JPIA org.. hmm. i'm glad, it was successful i believe. we acted as proctors, [me,netty&alddon] it was an added experience. hehe. i love the questions, they made me think for quite some time.. haha. what else? i also needed some break from the academic stuff, one great reason why i joined JPIA. honestly, i like the fact that i belong to a group of people that have the same interests, maybe not that personal, but atleast we're taking similar paths as of the time being.. hmm.. how i wish i could make it 'til the end of the road.[haay] i always got to talk with my friends in school regarding our current decisions and all that... often, i get strucked.confused.tortured. and the best part of it was i always got motivated to push harder. what a life. well, i always say, just deal with it. but hey, it's not an easy way. c'mon, i'm still at the basics, i don't even know where am i going next. when almost all of the people around you are busy checking out their skeds for the next term, having the gush of feeling what'll be their modular experience, and you are there, in a corner, sitting, wondering what's your next blog layout, thinking its tuesday while eating siomai, and half-dreaming.. that you should have been there too. but its too late. or is only a bit late? whatever i say, i just have to realize that this is exactly what is happening before my eyes NOW. can you give me a great question? ask the hardest. i can easily answer it with a big sigh.

along came accounting..

2006-03-09T13:42:00.000+08:00

So.i gez you sensed it right.Accounting was never made easy.It is never done easy though.I know i should not be complaining now, i do not really have the right to. I do all these, but there's lacking. That is, enthusiasm. patience. effort. love. ?? huh. Again? Honestly, i am learning to love my course. Well, do i have a choice? Of course again, my mind tells me what is the best thing to do. I just can't put them into relevant decisions. Can I stay here any longer? Would i be happy then? Maybe at some point in time, I will definitely find the reason behind. 'Coz it is hard, when i look at myself, i can't barely remember the time i was talked highly about. those praises. pride. and everything a student achiever earns for herself. Now, i may sound to idealistic [like..TAPAT -or- SANTUGON] but that's how i feel. This is how i see myself right now, and i want it be changed. CHANGE for i can never accept failure again in my life if just because i have overlook my efforts and strenghts.

to be continued...

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

2006-03-07T12:49:00.000+08:00

..i just miss them..

rewind.

2006-03-05T18:21:00.000+08:00

haay. what's happening? naiinis ako. naiinis ako. naiinis ako.
oops. waiit. okay na'ko. i didn't mean to react that way. it's just that there are things not meant to bring back at this moment. i believe i have already said this before and i don't care if i sound too pirated 'coz of its redundancy and eeriness. for that particular person: we had a closure. that's it. you want me to spell it out? it's over.

so sorry for this entry. just have to let it go.. i'm soo tired of explaining. i gez i really have to do another letter for him. okay. goodluck to me.

ciao!

for 3*

2006-02-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

Dear someone,

i saw your face again, this time it's not tuesday. yeah, i believe you only exists during that specific day, yet i can't seem to understand why you can't run away from my thoughts.
you seem to haunt the rest of my week. Why?

i got chances of seeing you for real, even to the slightest chance of getting near you, talked with you, i caught them all! and how i feel so blessed inside. i just simply can't hide.. but still i won't predict these feelings..

you know, you're just one of them.
but still, you're one constant.

from,
someone too.

back to reality..

2006-02-15T19:06:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's our midterms for accounting! pray for me my dear friends.. btw, i should have reported my case for our law subject awhile ago but because of.. hmm.. i don't know.. i didn't have the chance to report.. but this week i guess, it'll gonna happen soon.. haay. i'm so pressured. but atleast i still manage to visit stuffs like this.. haha.. we'll be presenting our powerpoint presentation [subject:ME] tomorrow in our computer class so i'd better be finishing the last touches on my very own, masterpiece. haha. but i gez its lacking something.. something much more relevant to the topic.. well, anyway.. as i said i have midterms tomorrow so, tonight's gonna be a very tiring night for my brain.. for my eyes.. and for my calculator.. hehe.=)

okay, have to end this now.i have to eat...it's gonna be a loong night after all..=)

God Bless You friends.

ciao!

what's wrong with me? i'm always stuck on the same situation over and over again.
i hate complications but they're trying to love me amidst everything.
c'mon, do i stil have to expound about this?!

back at zero.

2006-02-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

hehe. really? what am i doing here again?! haha.. great.. i have some reason to escape reality once again.. after all, i'm always at lost!. anyway.. haha. can't you get it? i mean, where am i now? i stil can't satisfy that question. whow. hassle. kainis. grabe. errr. kaloka. whatever!!

now, this is really weird. what day is tomorrow? uhh. its 'd 14th day of the month of feb. hahaha. now i know.. kaya pala ganito noh. hahaha. tawa lang ako.. tawa lang din kayo.. =) i'm beginning to act insane. na naman.. oh please.. hav really random thoughts on my mind ryt now.. i just can't put them into meaningful sentences. well, it's quite obvious though. basta, i'm expecting [expect less=hurt less] that tomorrow will be a very shiny day.. hehehe.. besides, it's P.E. day! meaning.. it's Ronda day again! RondaFul day... wahaha.. well.. my closest buddies might understand why i really am glad to know that hearts' day falls on a tuesday.. haha. enuf 'bout the clues.. it's given na.

goung back, to zero. yeah, i'm still hanging on. despite the imperfections from accounting. the desperation for oblicon. the danger zone in math. haha... i don't know. but i can still take this don't worry. if ever.. i would still be willing to try harder.... but you know.. people do get tired too. but there's always an exception. like.... blahh. haha tinamad.

i won't go into further details 'bout my current addiction as of now. there were many. yes. but now, there's a few who click. haha. what 'click'? i gez there's something missing. i have a whole lot of great friends.. and he doesn't even belong to that. or does he?

Anyway!, i would just like to greet you all a very very wonderful and meaningful Valentines Day!

Share Love. Peace. Be Active. Join Chorale. Don't despair. It's God's will. Okay. :)

Love you all Guys!

Mwuah. Happy Hearts' Month!!

God Bless You All!

Underneath It All

2006-01-31T11:33:00.000+08:00

Underneath It All

my mind works over
the beating of that part
is gone
i swear it was all never
a memory of something's done

i left it all uncovered
with the sheets tightly laid,
i'm lost with all the keeping
must now be on my way..

while watching the early sunset
gloomy and withered by rain,
this precious rose has been tormented
with no one besides its stain

he said he'd make us forever
but then it's all been gone
and now i swear
this love's in danger
believe me,
it's not all fun..

it's not at all fun...

[hey friends & co-bloggers! i just managed to update my site simply because a couple of minutes ago, some twenty lines hit me.. haha.. err whatever. i just wanted to post it here anyway..]
[by the way, its a self-composition. by who else of course?! wahaha thank you.]
[if you feel something is quite wrongfully placed, feel the urge to comment.]
[if i have the "time" (i need it more than anybody *lol), i'd be willingly glad to share and post my "other" so-called 'compositions'.. hehe=)]
[i need more of the inspiration i'm currently earning so far.. but of course, there's no one in particular that could give me.. haha pathetic ba? 'di no. haha labo.]

ciao!

P.S.

I am also working on the melody for this one.[as if i could play a single instrument] but hey, i believe i can figure it out sooner..]

two thousand six.

2006-01-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

w0w. this might be my first post for the new year.. :) hmm. i am soo excited to tell you all how the year ended and how it started with a bang!.. i am just too exhausted to indulge more in this blog thing 'coz i just came from a rondFul day where i consider a very ultimate physical education ever.. haha.. well, it's fun. yeah, i hope it will be.. i know this kind of usual but i just wanted to share my emotions for now, what's going on my mind, who's running inside, and who's going out, i guess. haha i want to shut up. 'till next time friends and fellow bloggers... gotta listen to some downloads a little while......:)

ciao!

H A P P Y H O L I D A Y S!

2005-12-21T15:04:00.000+08:00

Will it be great Holiday Season...for me?

*sigh

Hopefully.

Well, enuf said. Thanks for the very touching card i got from yesterday's shocking revelation.. haha,accepted ko na.. yeah.. that's life.

anyway, i was touched once again by a certain testimonial from a friend. Thanks dude! will definitely miss you..

=) ciao!

push.

2005-12-15T12:10:00.000+08:00

Pray Until Something Happens.

Whew. Second Term is finally over! I just can't believe it.. whoo.
Yesterday was a blast. We crammed over our due papers for ENGLTWO and together with my ever-DL partner Eda (visit her site at the ~*Fellow Mortals*~ section of this blog) , we finally handed on our bulky research paper to Ms. Chuchi! haha too bad we were not able to attend the 'bonus activity' she prepared for us.. but i heard, it was class activity so.... yei! (free-loader) well, above all i am so happy narin... :D

well, i must be. hihi.

hmm. seems like it's going to be a long rest week for us-- lasallites! i hope so.
by the way, my blockmates are planning to have a simple term-end party at EK tomorrow... *sigh. hope i could come.. i am honestly having second thoughts about it.. maybe because i am not yet ready to accept the fact that we are soon be separated from each other.. yeah, next term's gonna be a whole lot different from the previous terms... and i feel so low about it... :'( probably, i won't be sharing the same subjects, breaks, and other spare time with my dear friends in our block.. most especially with my organ friends... huhu... i will going to miss them so-o much!... & that breaks my heart..

Now, do i have to join them tomorrow?! think..think.. :D

time's flying so fast. no one can stop it i guess.. but seeing my future ahead, i know i just have to get going and finish the race.. though it's hard, i should keep on trying.. maybe, just maybe.. i'll get over soon.... and i can show the world, how grateful i am to have gone through it all...

"Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.. it just means you've decided to see life beyond the imperfections.. So don't say you're happy 'coz everything's alright, be happy 'coz everything sucks but you're doing just fine.." -got it from a friend's sms.

ciao!

what's happening?

2005-12-14T14:18:00.000+08:00

oh no. tapos na pala finals. ayaw ko maniwala. dati gusto ko ng matapos pero ngayon parang gusto kong ulitin. haha ang labo ko talaga oo. malapit na lantern sa clsu. dati, gusto kong pumunta, pero ngayon ayoko na. o diba, 'wag na sana akong magtaka kung bakit hanggang ngayon wala pa ring linaw ang 'lahat'. simple lang: hindi ko rin alam. ngayon, kailangan ko ng tapusin ang thesis sa engltwo para matapos na lahat at makauwi na'ko. namimis ko na ang second home ko.. sana makita ko na xa. xa na walang alam sa anumang nagaganap sa kasalukuyan kong iniisip. waah.sana 'di niya mabasa 'to. pero gusto ko rin pala na malaman niya. mahalaga ang bawat oras na pumapatak. totoo.. eto ang pinaka-paborito kong quote ngayon:

"To realize the value of one year, ask a student who failed a grade.
To realize the value of one month, ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of one week, ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of one hour, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of one minute, ask a person who just missed the train.
To realize the value of one second, ask a person who just avoided an accident.
Treasure every moment! Today is a GIFT. That's why it is called PRESENT.."

Kaya kung 'yun' na e di sana nalalaman ko na ngayon. oo nah, malabo na. alam ko naman na eh. hahaha. sige, lalo lang ako nababaliw nito eh.
malapit na.as in sobra... :) :) :) :)

ciao!

pinKie adela and the laughing organs..

2005-12-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

well, i just want to share what happened this day.. haha its monday. actually, a laughtrip monday for us.. but of course, naooffsset pa rin ng stress and pressure for the nearing finals! aahh! creepy finals! yep.. you heard it right. anyway, i won't talk about negative forces yet coz it'l only make me cry all over again.. could you imagine? i have been crying for almost three days in a row... i am so depressed.stressed.pressured and all... *sigh. but friends, i know the angel can live with it.. she surely can deal with it, right? won't you agree?.. There's a great big guy up there!.. He'll help me work things out i know.. :)

so, about the laughtrip thingy, i bought this newly-commercialized Pond's color beauty powder..*lol and tried it for curiosity.. well, i always have that. huge of that. hmm.. so i figured out that this blushy thing really works.. in fact, even if i just poured out very small amount of talc i easily gets that "pinK effect" hahaha.. anyways, my very lovely and gorgeous friend adela borrowed my powder, take note, piNk powder and *magic.. she turned herself into a piNkie! hahaha.... let's make it more exxagerated.. pinKie in a corpo.. haha. wait, jicko said the "corpo" term doesn't sound too normal... hmm.. well? whatever.. hehe..:)) we rolled in laughter seeing my fellow organ mate blushing so hard plus the effect of my monster powder.. Haha.. well, so much for that.. we just enjoyed the whole thing. :p

now, its time for me to go back into the real world. spell: S T R E S S F U L T A S K S A H E A D!

ciao!

"..when november ends.."

2005-11-30T15:32:00.000+08:00

hello friends! Well obviously, this would be my last entry for the month.. hmm.. am i still in vacation mode? haha. we had a trip to subic but then, instead of enjoying it all off.. sad things happen.. uno, i lost my eyeglasses on the beach that night.. (when we were escaping from the crowd's noise..) dos, my accounting folder went crazy, nasira in short.. tres, i felt dizzy throughout the travel.. kwatro, i learned about my cuz's pangchihicboi.. which i prefer not to tolerate.. huh. iba pala talaga pag torpe?! u won't expect what i found out.. tsk tsk.. :s

but of course, there are still a lot of great things na nangyari.. like, we went out during midnight.. stargazing with my cousins.. and enjoyed the music from the great band that played at the bar we went to! grabe, galing nila! hmm.. well, they made me sing before the whole crowd.. and my mom's nonstop requests flooded the stage.. haha. i can't refused though. kaya yun, no choice e di kumanta.. haha. "asintado" daw sabi nung vocalist..yee.. *flattered *lol anyways, after that set we all went dipping in the beach.. xmpre, wala talagang tulugan dba.. haha.. feeling walang finals the next week.. huhu.. how i wish we could spend the week there.. together with the whole family and kamag-anakans.. hai. *sad

hmm.. oh, before i forgot.. we had the chance to watch Spongecola, Imago, and "that band" last week at the CCS Week.. whoah. i was so glad i happen to see the bands' vocalists.. i admire OPM Music the most.. really! galing talaga.:) i was with ate nova, her friend divine, and kuya randy. we all went home late and the three of us ate dinner at chowking. (xmpre, fave ko yta yun!) haha. during our very late dinner, inasar ko sila, inasar din nila ko. hahaha.. xmpre, mas inasar namin si kuya randy.. good thing he's not pikon. kundi, nako patay tayo jan! HAHA.

maybe, this entry's enough for now. if you happen to see my friendster page, you could check out my new addiction.. find out. i mean, its not a person okay. (yuck, defensive) cge cge..

i'm outta here.. feel free to comment! i'd surely like that.;)

Godspeedz.

ciao!

bkit xe tinetext pa ehh..?! *sigh

neon

2005-11-30T15:27:00.000+08:00

your smile is gently freezing
snow feels in away
you're the laughter in my silence
the cold that keeps me awake
green towel less soft spoken
your thoughts you never knew
your lies and empty promises
i'll do the more at you

How does it feel?
How is it that I can feel?
coz I, I need to know

coz I, I know I can never be enough
to replace your whatever
and I, I think it's shiny and blue
like a dance that see through

coz I, I know I can never be enough
to replace your whatever
now everything is silent,
and everything is still without you near

Everything about you
the world was something new
and I was there at the open
well just to be with you
but every time I see the shelter
and every time I walk away
you're the laughter in my silence
the cold that feeds my day

How does it feel?
How is it that I can feel?
coz I need to know

coz I, I know I can never be enough
to replace your whatever
and I, I think it's shiny and blue
like a lens that see through

coz I, I know I can never be enough
to replace your whatever
now everything is silent,
and everything is still without you near
and every time I see you passing by
I'll just stay here waiting for you
and I will talk to myself
on a lazy Sunday afternoon
and I'll still say that prayer for you

i'll be a little bit proud of me
while trying to be so perfect you'll see
and nothing can compare to
whatever lies out there
there's no one here
there's no one here
there's no one here
there's no one here
there's no one here

there's no one.......

23

2005-11-30T15:08:00.000+08:00

Gemini
Spongecola

come a little closer flicker in flight
we'll have about an inch's space
but i'm here i can breathe in
what you breathe out

let me know if i'm doing this right
let me know if my grip's too tight
let me know if i can stay all of my life
let me know if dreams can come true
let me know if this one's your's too

coz' i see it
and i feel it right here
and i feel you right here

the vacuous night
steps aside to give meaning
to gemini's dreaming
the moon on its back
and the seemingly
veiled room's lit
by the same star

can't get enuf..

2005-11-25T16:16:00.000+08:00

Blue sky
Hale

When do stars fade their light?
Does the moon and the sun make it right
For you the world maybe
Like an endless storm chasing a mystery

Is there hate in your heart?
Does your body drop and tell you to stop
Loving you or loving me
When it all falls down you just sing with me

Coz there's a blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow shining and shimmering
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow
Maybe it's all we need

Oh don't you wash away that smile
You just look out the window and see the light
It's beautiful to be alive
It's wonderful to live a life

The sun is sure to shine
For you and me for everyone
So don't be sad it's just the start
Of a new beginning in your life

Rain will keep on pouring
Some things you can't control
And while the sun seems far and hard to hold
It will unfold

There will always be a blue sky
A blue sky waiting tomorrow

blue sky..

2005-11-24T17:10:00.000+08:00

whew. this week is super fun and stressful! i was amazed. nagkasya sakin skirt ni ate pristine.
pero hindi rin pala madali ang nakacorporate attire ng half-day.. grabe, sumakit mga paa ko. haha.

i'm quite happy on what's happening in my life this term.. sana magtuluy-tuloy nah.. i'm constantly praying for it... i don't know what i have done to deserve these kind of oppurtunities.. seems like forever..

my dreams? yeah, they still exist. last night, for the nth time the angel's dream guy has appeared again.. whoah. ayoko na. lokohan na ata 'to. kidding aside, mejo hindi na rin xe nakakatuwa. parang lalo lang akong nageexpect ng purpose.. sshh. tama na. ayoko na nga dba.:'(

wait!! sabi ko masaya ko ehh.. hai. i have accomplished several things this week. paper works, accounting tasks... and of course ang walang kamatayang quizzes sa math.. one more thing, ang dami ko ring natututunan everyday.. new encounters, new ideas, fresh smiles everyday... you can't imagine how fulfilled i am kahit na halos di ko na mamanage ng mabuti ang allowance ko.. haha.. pero above all, i am really grateful kay God. He is doing all of these for me to appreciate everything around me. Indeed, napatunayan ko sa sarili ko, right before my eyes, even the tiniest things can affect me as a person...

hmm.. mukhang maaga pa 'tong reflection for the nearing breath of Christmas.. but i just want to tell to anyone who's reading this that our lives are made special for us not to cherish and treasure every minute of it...

the week's not yet over.. i know there are a lot that could take place but i just want to say na i'm glad i have encountered people na they really have taught me lessons i will never forget. :)

nagsosorry ako.. pero alam ko nmn na di nia rin gusto yun.. kaya magtha-thank you nalang talaga ko sakanya.... so there, Thank You.. (if you're reading this.) posible naman talagang maging friends, dba? hope so.

to top these all off, i would like to mention my sincere gratitude to my organ friends. *lol

iba kayo! picture ulit tayo. mamimiss ko talaga kayo next term. nako, inatake na naman ako ng kasentihan sa mundo...

actually, you have to admit, this entry of mine really spells: BADUY for others, CORNY for some.. yet for me its.. Special. Nandito na lahat. I've tried to spill my my thoughts for the whole week so i wish you have seen the effort.

ciao!

its a continuation.. or is it really?

2005-11-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

a continuation of a dream.. i am such a loser to think i was uber attached to those dreams i had.. am i? you know what's bothering me is that that dream is truly haunting me 'til i sleep every night.. sheez.. scary,huh? hmm.. i never wished for it, but i am too coward to admit what i have to accept and what i really feel.. complicated. i've said this before, i hate complications. but i can't get rid of it.. should i stay inside of that dream and still hope it'll soon be played for real? haha. my mind says its funny.. i'm totally insane ryt now.. how could that be? waah.. can i just stop and bring back the time when we were sitting there inside.. moving.. our eyes closed.. with music playing.. but then, suddenly, everything just bounced back to truth that it can't be. we can't be.

*sigh. okay, i don't want further descriptions about the angel's dream guy. last clue: they're close but not really..

labo n0h!?

ciao!

pa pa ra pa pa..

2005-11-22T12:52:00.000+08:00

whew. CWTS is almost over! should i be happy then?.. hmm.. don't think so.. because.. never mind.. well ofcourse, it has given me the oppurtunity to mingle with the most ordinary people here in the city and through it i have experienced more tighter camaraderie with my blockmates in C31.. i am really grateful that i became one of them.. & that i am actually a part of the nicest block in the campus.. whoah. :) hmm.. by the way, i would also like to share (to those solid gailers out there... haha! ) one of the best written letters i have read.. its from our block president and i was so touched by its content so here it goes,

We are nearing the end of our companionship. No matter what anyone says, it will be difficult to be a block again. We have our own tastes.We have our own preferences. Some work better alone, other ingroups. Others work better with breaks, others work better straight.Others are morning people, others hate mornings. Whatever thereason, it will be a rare time that we all become classmates again.All this going on, I would only like to thank everyone for everything. Ithas been not only an interesting time, but a fun one at that.I would also like to say that though we may go our separate ways, wedon't have to sever our ties. Though bonds made of iron may rust andbreak, bonds made from friendship and time will not.

This class has gone through so many things already. We have slept through busrides,endured weekly journal huntings, played basketball, volleyball and othersports. Our bonds have been tightened by chat, fashion shows,boatrides and hikes. We have lost in volleyball games, basketballgames and billiard games. We have gone through fashion shows anddull acquaintance parties. We have gotten drunk, hyper, lost and tired.We have irritated each other, shared tears, sorrows, encouragementand fears. We have had bitter conflicts and sweet pardons. We have met new friends, encountered new loves, taken up new hobbies andignited new passions. We have played guitar together, sang together,been in variety shows with faulty magic tricks and gay dancers. We have grown tired of the color yellow and cursed our calculators. We have, in exasperation, thrown our books around, and scattered scratchpapers as our new friends look on beside us and comfort us.

We have played HOTS, truth or dares and spin the bottle. We have taken joy inshooting stars, origami and other paper games. We have had our spiritsbroken by teachers, and life renewed by friends, classmates or even byother teachers. We have lined up to photocopy a lot of times that weknow the names of those kind ladies in blue. We have had friendsleave for another school. We have grown fond of our dorms, ourcafeteria and our seats. Our books are not just our books anymore;they are part of our lives. Kaloob doesn't just mean 'inside' anymore, itmeans something deeper. Our time is not just ours alone. We have long sought for a peaceful night of assignment free bliss, but have found our computers or laptops in our faces as we speedily type up our research prospectus. We have argued, questioned and even cursed,under our breath, our teachers, but still, we have praised and thanked them.

Physical bonds break. Ethereal bonds fade, but our friendship is more than just a bond, isn't it then? It may not be the stuff of legends,nor may it become an everlasting tale. It, however, is what we have. Others may search for greatness, goodness, gold or glamour, andthough we may not have any of these, we are contended with the factthat we have known each other, and that this bond will last us throughout our lifetime. Though we each have our eccentricities and quirks, we have learned to accept the fact that it just will not be C31 without any one of us.

As a final note, forget not what our time together has taught each individual, may it be the virtue of kindness, the importance of friends,the value of resilience, the worth of encouragement, the significance of assignments or even the merit of failure. Each of us has, in this shortspan of time, helped shape each one of us in one way or another, intonot only better a person, a better Christian or a better La Sallian, but into a better US.

To end all of this, let me just say that I am glad to have been your class president, friend, brother, groupmate, classmate, teacher,student, supervisor, class clown, leader, follower or irritator. I havelearned a lot from all of you, from all of us.The future is bright for all of us, in whatever path we trudge through.Thank you for giving me the opportunity to meet all of you and to get toknow all of you.Thank God, Destiny, Fate or whatever you believe in, for this class aswell. I know I do. Everyday. (Sy, Nov.15,2005)

* sobs..

That is why we have to treasure the remaining classes we have together.. as we approach another term as a frosh, i always keep on praying that we never forget all the times and moments spent together.. may it be good or not-so..

i've always wanted to stop the time last saturday.
above all, i'm happy.. lalala.

soundtripping..

2005-11-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

what i love about it in particular? it kills time.

wish i could tell him everything..

yei!

2005-11-15T16:07:00.000+08:00

its weird.. how come i dreamt of someone for two consecutive nights?.. and with the same events.. i mean, similar happenings.. whoah. so strange. hmm...

anyways, i just want to share to everybody that i do have a very nice aura for this past few days... and still hoping it'll continue 'til the next days ahead... i am just so glad that everything were going out well.. for me, for them, and for us... well of course i don't know if that's the case with some peepz out there yet i still pray this will never end... huh.. senti mode again?..
btw, got a new iPod shuffle! one great reason why i'm enjoying having spare time huh.. feels great babehh.. hehe! ;)

going back to that "dream".. i can't think of any reason why it happened, is it only coincidental? meant to? blahh.. but whatever it is, i believe everything has a purpose.. reasons why these things take place.... and would you believe, that particular person from my dream also admitted that he dreamt of me too? that same night, maybe?!... oh no.. haha.. well, i'm just so curious 'bout it.. but as much as i wanted to ask him 'bout it, i would always prefer to stay quiet and of course i cannot assume especially when we both know we're very close friends and nothing special will be going on.. i mean, come on! *shyness strikes again* enough of this.. i'm beginning to feel red.. haha, just kidding! he's my friend. that's it. besides, that's more than possible if ever.. yeah, i'm quite sure about that! no more comments allowed, alryt!? i bet some would appeal to my statements here though... well guys, all i can say is... "whatever!".. hahahaha.... am i happy? you wish.

i hate expectations.

that hurts in the end.

ciao!

that stare..

2005-11-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

i was about to fall down.. i don't know why. i am almost drowning, feeling too hypnotized.. i just woke up from a dream.. sheez.. how will i ever?.... nevermind...

meanwhile, we were having a printer problem last nyt.. then, i remember my friend [kuya R] who knows how to fix it some way.. well, we decided to ask help from him and because of his generosity and kindness, he simply said yes and later this day, we met down at the lobby.. together with ate nova's laptop and unpredictable printer, i felt awkward just seeing him and yes, talking to him coz of the fact that we really are rare conversationalists... but then again, we sure have no other choice but to at least say something and exchange glances simply because, he's there with all his effort just to fix our printer!.. well, too bad.. hindi nakisama ang printer... get it? after a few seconds of booting and loading up.. tanan!.. *magic! the printer's working already! without any further clicking and repairs!... as in i was like, "wwhatt?!"... oh no... disaster! i almost freaked out of cara's study hall!... gosh. nakakahiya, sobra.. sobra.. sobra.. *sobs.

i have to eat.. i'll have to write a follow up nextime...

ciao!

soundtrack galore..

2005-11-09T19:06:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be Love
Mandy Moore- A walk to remember

It's gonna be me, baby
It's gonna be you, baby
Time, I've been patient for so long
How can I pretend to be so strong?
Looking at you, baby
Feeling it too, baby
If I'm asking you to hold me tight
Then it's gonna be all night

It's gonna be love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me, baby
It's gonna be you, baby
It's gonna be.....

It's gonna be love

Time, am I restless or a fool?
How can you pretend to be so cruel?
Maybe it's me, baby
Maybe it's true, baby
Maybe it's everything we're dreaming of
We've waited long enough
It's gonna be love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be you're the one to do
It's gonna be me, baby (me, baby)
It's gonna be you, baby

The sooner you let two hearts beat together
The sooner you'll know this love is forever (It's gonna be love)
Love needs time now or never (It's gonna be love)
It's gonna be tough
You gotta believe
It's gonna be strong enough..

love this song..

soundtrack galore..

2005-11-09T19:01:00.000+08:00

Take My Heart Back
Jennifer Love Hewitt- If Only

It'll be alright
You saidTommorrow
Don't you cry
Don't you shed a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We'll battle all your fears
And now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh,the light that life can give you
Oh,how we get such a free

So now I'll...
Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears..

soundtrack galore..

2005-11-09T18:50:00.000+08:00

Grow Old With You

Adam Sandler- The Wedding Singer

I wanna make you smile

Whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you.

I'll get your medicines

When your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh it could be so nice growing old with you..

Chorus:

I'll Miss you, kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you, feed you

I'll even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes on our kitchen sink

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink

Oh i could be the man

who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you

aww.. so sweet..

four-day break!

2005-10-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

whew! midterms are gone for the second time!.. i am really hoping for good results this time.. anyway, i am so excited for our four-day break in school.. finally i could go back home to nueva.. how i miss my lola and my kulit cousins!.. haha.. i am really really desperate to go home now.. as in now na.. heehee.. well, aside from seeing them of course the main reason why we have this not-so-carefree break is because of our annual commemoration of our loved ones who are now with the Lord.. May they all rest in peace my friends.. hmm.. but before the main event dz Nov.1, the tricky halloween date would definitely mean a thing coz as early as now i have been receiving quite spooky messages in my inbox.. haha.. cge lang.. maximize your potentials in humour, and worst, in making someone else's pulse breakdown.. yikes exagg! obviously, i am hyper today for the angel is going to have a break from all those classes.. you know.. still, there are a pile of tasks to do in accounting, engltwo, filipi1 and the floating ones.. whoah.. now, isn't that a nice pasalubong for my old room's desk in our province?! *sigh. but then, i am still grateful for the break given.. at least i will have some time to relax even with worksheets on bed and journal articles to criticize.. hmm..

wish i could fly by now..

ciao!

i feel so low.

2005-10-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

once again, 'd angel is here to spill some of her emotions from the recent happenings in her life.. but wait, if you aren't ready for cheezy statements, i advise you click that 'x' button on the upper right corner of the window and just leave this site, otherwise, i opt you stay for i really need some attention right now.. err.. whatever!.. hmm.. so, to start off.. i would like to say that i am so-o sad as of this moment.. i really don't want this so-called loneliness to strike through me.. argh. i just feel so low. sometimes, i just want to think some things far way over.. like now, what else can i see? a plain big question mark nagging about my future.. yes i know, you won't understand the real point, however i need to feel some sympathy even for just awhile.. i am not going to say that i am losing hope already but by now, i still cannot see where my life leads to.. well, i pray. i talk to Him. and i'm sure He always listens. yet there is still an empty space within.. maybe... maybe not... for now, i will not take this for granted. this is just pure emotions. my brain is impossibly not working but my heart is pushing through the walls of my mysterious behavior.. i feel so sad and weird at the same time.. hope i can gain courage for the next days of my life.. weird 'coz until now, i can't figured out the reasons on why i still keep doing things i am not supposed to do.. sad 'coz after seeing all the grade results last term, i still manage to burn my eyes in front of this freakin' computer.. oops, sorry.. i guess i have to go now.. *sigh. wish it'll be the last time i get lonely.. lastly, i know this entry is quite complicated to absorb but whatever it is, i have written it for my own purpose.. i still love this and rest assured you will realize its meaning as the angel continues to soar high and below.. thanks for the time..

God speedz guys! ciao!

whew.

2005-10-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

de.ge.su

Friends for Keeps!

yeah i know, i'm sorry..

2005-10-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

I think that says it all..

Source: Greenarcher.net

xentee mode

2005-10-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

hei friends. well, i am quite sure you noticed a bit of song lyrics here in my blog lately.. actually, i just realized to put few of my favorite lyrics (based form the angel's all-time-fave movie) here due to unknown reasons.. anywayz, i love myself today.. hehe..bec. i'm wearing pink ryt now.. i feel alive again!.. i really don't know what i'm going to say here.. (whoah, for the first time) maybe because there are huge amounts of force pulling me out from using the internet lately... i don't know.. i just want to stay away from any form of techie nowadays.. even cellphone? yes. *sigh. ang labo na nito.. tomorrow, we'll have our block picture-taking.. we haven't decided on our theme yet.. funny, they want us to show off with our highschool uniforms.. that sounds cool,eh? hmm..sad thing i left those pink stuff there in the province.. of course, why will i even bring them here anyway?.. lol. btw, i am already feeling the adrenaline rush for this coming thursday when FEU and my beloved Alma Mater will meet again for the Game 2 of the UAAP 68th Season.. Go Archers! the angel strongly believes in the power of the green team!.. well of course, minus the trash-talking and cheap shots flying.. tsk, tsk! enough of that, before i forgot to add here, finally i had the great chance of seeing my highschool friends at UST when we have been required to watch the UAAP Table Tennis Tournament at the Thomasian Grounds.. i am so glad i got the time to see them again and made some updates with each and everyone.. i received a sad news though. but hey, it's always a blessing.. Good Luck to her!.. i pray she'll find light and comfort in every way and in every step she'll take as the day goes by... God is always there and i know He never gives difficult situations without divine purpose and of course without enough strength to carry on.. hmm.. you see, i am always at the spotlight when it comes to senti-moments..

God speedz friends, Ciao!

past.past.past.

2005-09-30T18:06:00.000+08:00

~~Love Moves in Mysterious Ways~~

Who'd have thought this how the pieces fit
You and I shouldn't try even making sense of it
I forgot how we ever came this far,
I believe we had reasons but I don't know what they are,
So I blame it on my heart oh...

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
How love appears over the horizon
I love you for the rest of my days
But still it's a mystery
Of how you ever came to me
Which only proves, love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows, Love is just a chance we take
We make plans, but then love demands of leap of faith
So hold me close and never ever let me go
'Cause even though we think we know which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no..

Like the ticking of the clock, two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand the way it;s done, oh

Love moves in mysterious...ways.....

"..pass.passed.past."-gail

2005-09-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

If You Believe

I close my eyes,
And even when I'm sleeping
I'm alright,
'Cause You are in my life.

Once upon a time,
I only imagined this
And now You're mine.
Wished for you so hard.
Prayed that You'd find me;
Baby you're here today,

Here to remind me:
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.

There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe, oh oh...
Everybody said
That I was a fool to think
That we could be; (Everybody said that...)
That I couldn't get my heart out of my head

But they just didn't see;
No, they just could not have
The feeling that You give,
The places that You go...
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.

'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe.
Never wished for material things;
Never needed wind in my wings.
I never wished for anything but You...oh!
I can't explain it,
Someone just told me,
"Go where your heart is,You'll never be lonely."

If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That (when you believe) when
You want Someone enough,
Then they can't escape Your love.

There is nothing in the world that cannot be,
If you believe.
Believe, believe, believe, ooh...

"..yes if you believe.."-gail

2005-09-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

You

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
It's not me
It's you
It's you

Sometime's ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in
What I know
It's not in me
It's in you
It's in you
It's all I know
It's all that I know
It's all that I know

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me (me)
In you
It's in you

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me (me)
In you
In you
It's all I know
It's all that I know
It's all that I know

In you
In you
It's in you
It's in yo

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
It's not me (me)
It's you
It's you
It's you
It's you
It's you

It's all that I know
It's you
It's you
It's all that I know
It's you
It's you
It's all that I know
It's you
It's you
It's all that I know
It's you
It's you
It's all that I know

it's gon

2005-09-30T17:42:00.000+08:00

Learning to breathe

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way
This is the way that

I'mLearning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You
and You alone can break my fall

I'm living again,
awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe
in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought
that I would fall like that

Never knew that I could hurt this bad
So this is the way that I say
I need You
This is the way that I say
I love You
This is the way that I say
I'm Yours
This is the way, this is the way..

that's how it goes.

2005-09-29T20:05:00.000+08:00

what a disgrace. i hate it.

ANIMO?!

yeah, ryt.

batukan daw ba kse.. tsk tsk!

ciao!

Currently Playing...

2005-09-29T18:38:00.000+08:00

Raoul:No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you,
beside you, to guard you
and to guide you...

Christine:Say you love me
every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me
with you now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true -
that's all I ask of you...

Raoul:Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe: No-one will find you -
your fears are far behind you...

Christine:All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night...
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me...

Raoul:Then say you'll share with me one love,
one lifetime...
let me lead you from your solitude....
Say you need me with you here,
beside you...
anywhere you go, let me go too -

Christine, that's all I ask of you...

Christine:Say you'll share with me one love,
one lifetime...
say the word and I will follow you...

Raoul & Christine:Share each day with me,
each night, each morning...

Christine:Say you love me...

Raoul:You know I do...

Raul & Christine:Love me - that's all I ask of you...

Anywhere you go let me go too...
Love me - that's all I ask of you...

Phantom:I gave you my music...
made your song take wing...
and now how you've repaid me:
denied me and betrayed me...
He was bound to love you
when he heard you sing...

Christine...Christine...

Raoul & Christine:Say you'll share with me one love,
one lifetime...
say the word and I will follow you...
Share each day with me, each night, each morning...

Phantom:You will curse the day you did not do all that the Phantom asked of you...!

i hate myself for wanting him this way.

2005-09-28T17:07:00.000+08:00

i love pink today.

~Constantly~

I knew it was there
Though I tried to hide it
The feeling just kept on shining through
Haven’t known you that long
So I try to deny it
But the feeling was much too
Much too strong

Could this be love
Deep down inside
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart

Constantly, you’re on my mind
Thinking about you all the time
I can’t sleep no matter what I do
I just keep on thinking ‘bout you

Why do I feel this way
When I know you have someone
That you’re seeing each and everyday
Should I play this game
Of just being your friend
but i know that’s not where I want it to end

How could this be wrong
When it feels so strong
Tearing me apart I feel it in my heart
No I don’t want to start
No trouble
Between you and I and you lover
But I must tell you what I’m going through

Everytime you walk by
I see Love in your Eyes...

this song reflects so much of my emotion as of the moment.. actually, i really love this song.. version of Nina, preferably... Trivia: i always find myself singing the last lyrics of this song for unknown reasons.. LSS.. yeah.. kulit nga ehh.. hihi.

ciao!

How to lose a Guy in Three Months..

2005-09-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

anyway, please do not mind the title..

i just remembered my long-forgotten.. as much as i don't want to..
you see.. dear friends, the angel misses him too, although she already considers him as one of those wonderful memories meant to be jailed inside the shelves of disappearances.. because it is almost impractical and illogical to further explain why they didn't stay together that long, i wouldn't further comment on that.. let's just say the angel is not yet that ready.. not that much prepared for a super-attached partnership.. though she made that huge mistake once, she halfly-promises (is there such a word,though?) never to commit the same wrongdoing again.. hmm.. sometimes, it is better to stay away from that one person who always stands for you even if you got nothing else but sympathy for him/her.. it is not always advisable that you just continue the relationship if puro awa nalang ang gumagana.. it's wrong. and it will never be right. i guess by now, the angel knows how to atleast go beyond just the mere preferences but to appreciate the more significant factors that will greatly affect the bond between two persons.. whew, it was an experience though.. those were one of the few turning points that i consider blessed and came out with quite acceptable consequences.. yet it was never an easy one.. i felt pain, of course.. the thought of just leaving "it" alone and make no sense of fixing the three-month-long engagement.. well, i mean, that's relatively short but today i figured out that it could've been more productive for the both of us.. if only... if only...

and now, where do i stand?

ciao!

P.S.
i saw my current addiction early this day..really close.. whew.,

Let Go and Grow!

2005-09-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

karyl's right. nobody's really taking some time to atleast take a walk out of the mall (or even out the zoo -joking-) with our batchmates in highschool.. i mean, we all admit we overly miss each other's company but here we are.. getting stucked inside our own little zones without being engage in any personal contact.. how i wish there could be some stolen schedz for us to atleast make the most out of our free time.. if any.. asa pa ko..

well, the day went out fine.. the week, stil the same. we performed our first play in Filipi1 earlier this day and i can't help but giggle by the way we acted in front of the block.. although it's not my block, i truly appreciate their camaraderie towards li'l me.. hehe.. thanks C45! u're all great! we ended up leaving traces of joy in our faces as i faced another chaotic class in my major.. why?! its all because of my "uberly-kind-blockmates" in ActpriA. oh God knows how much i wanted to reshuffle the students just to get rid of those insensitive creatures that do nothing but agonize our learning process.. (C31, u guys know who 'm pointing out to) yeah i know.. i might sound "over" but i am not exaggerating things.. i just want them to realize that whatever they do, it reflects their real personalities thus affecting our class's ambience.. Ms. Manalo always get furious because of them. I hate it. It pisses me even more rather than seeing my addiction getting far far more away from me.. geez.. i hate to feel this way... but these things are really getting through my nerves.. i just can't let them ruin my second term.. arrghh... enough for this..

got out of the conversation.. last night was a blast! i didn't expected that we'd talk about something usual in everyday. but more than that, i am just more than glad enough that we do have that special connection.. well.. yep, the angel's once again relieved and happy.

later this day, i got the chance to stay long in YM to chat with my friends.. karyl and gem.. 'twas a nice day for me afterall.. though i felt sort of sentimental.. due to unavoidable topics.. yeah, we just have to tackle them all, u know.... tsk tsk.. anyways, i'm just contented that we both are going with the flow of college era.. haha.. so now, i must say that if we are determined enough to reach our goal, then Nothing really is IMPOSSIBLE.. we all stand for each other anyway.. i'm so-o grateful 'bout that.. thankz to my real friends who always keep it real... i salute you!

lastly, i wanna thank God for this day. i feel that whenever i think of problems, it just worsens my emotions.. so i guess i have to burn them all up and let out a big sigh and consider watching the basketball game on Sunday! Now, isn't that a better idea?.. ahuh.. hmm.. the angel's tired...
'tis time to rest her wings..

Let Go and Grow!

ciao!

erased.

2005-09-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

i'm trying. who says i'm not?..

its simply nothing to you. i know.

you won't never see me. never. and i will never like you again this way.. never again.

this time, i just want to give up from all of these crap. its pissing me off. i loved you, though i haven't known you that much. cheezy. arrgh.

nonsense? ryt. i know.

gotta go now.

ciao!

Animo!

2005-09-16T14:31:00.000+08:00

For the first time, i watched DLSU vs. Ateneo live in action!
whoah. i am super impressed by the huge crowd from both sides.. the green and blue blooded people were all over Araneta! I was simply stunned 'coz finally, i had a chance to stepped inside the Big Dome. Ahaha! Yup, tao na'po ako. Hehe. Ang saya pala..

Anyway, we won. i never expected to. But we defeated the Eagles (72-55). And im so-o proud of it! Cheers to Ateneans for One Big Fight! and of course, No one beats the Animo! *wink

After being totally exhausted from the screams and shouts containing TY TANG (hehe) i went home (Thank God!) feeling quite happy. Thanks to Joel for the company for w/o him i might've spent the rest of the night outside the streets of nowhere.. i am actually behaving innocently while traveling on MRT and LRT coz you know, probinsyana.. HaHa! But at least, NOW I KNOW na, Yeah. Ganun lng pla ehh.. yabang!

For the meantime, i feel so contented with what is happening right now in my life. Although not in the very peak of stability, i can say that i enjoy my studies so far.. I do not want to talk about my subjects here for now because i do not want to jump to any conclusions that might fail me in the future. So now, i just like to relax a bit and get back to work next starting week! Whew. As much as i want to watch the make or break game this Sunday (DLSU vs. UE), I prefer to just watch it at home coz it'll be a much less lively crowd i guess.. (not really) However, I think,the angel would only be that crazy and desperate (even for exagg ticket pricing from the scalpers) if it were for Ateneo-La Salle Games! Yeah, those games were worth saving for. Next time, i will really line up early for ticket passes.. hahahaha.. Good thing you have a friend from PEP or something related w/ the inside committees.. If u know what i mean.. I just want to seat nearer than ever next time we watch it live again... sigh.

Hmm. It's all for now my friends. The angel is long been waiting for someone who could free her wings again.. sounds complicated? Let's see.

ANIMO LA SALLE!

Everytime you walk by, I see love in your eyes..

2005-09-14T16:41:00.000+08:00

i saw him again after almost two weeks of my bo0rring term-break! Thank God i saw him again! w0w. kilig. that time i was freezing inside coz i know that person will never even be closer as ten blocks away from me..lungkot. he is so far. like, we're on the same school and breathe the same air.. live w/ the same frosh tag, and shouts the same old animo! but wait, he's already been with someone (who cares)bitter and still being with someone today.. sakit. bsta i saw him..

ibang level na ito!

Thank God for everything! It's a whole new term for us!

Ciao!

C-31's Dolphin Dance Craze.

2005-08-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

We had our last Orient1 Session today. That's it. One more thing, i should comment on how Wong perfectly executed the Dolphin Dance (originally from Jicko) earlier.. haha.. laughtrip ang gagz.. haha.. bad ko.. pero seryoso, ang laswa ng dating ehh.. peace Wong! ahehe.. all in all, we ended up in Orient laughing our hearts out.. take note, Chris was able to hid at the back of the.. whhatt?? just to prevent himself in an embarassing moment.. haha.. never mind.. such a hilarious scenario.. anyways, we have fun w/ the games.. ( i salute the xavieran team!) hehe.. hmm.. i also curse them for making me dance in front of the block. harhar.. well, i still had fun though.. before i get stuck again, i might as well have to finish my powerpoint presentation in physics or else its really the end of the world for me.. wahaha.. too bad.. i still can't get enough of my scores in accounting.. i'm still drowning... can anybody save the angel? she'll be waiting.

ciao!

Yun yun eh.

2005-08-09T17:06:00.000+08:00

depressed ako. 'la lang.

halata ba?

Thank God for EVERYTHING.

i just pray maging okay na tlga lhat..

i mean, sana 'ndi ako mag-ulit ng subject next term.. waah.. uhm, bsta ska sana... yun..

actually, yun yun eh. whatever..

ciao!

getting emotional.

2005-08-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously taking all the chances just to get a passing mark.. err.. agen? seriously nga ba? i am normally having a sleep of atleast eight hours.. and now? five hours. minsan, three hours. arrgh. what is happening?!.. well, anyway, the week went okay.. things were finally put to normal mode again after the elections.. we barely had quizzes but we did hav make-up classes for accounting.. hmm.. so, to make this enrty a li'l less boring, i watched Windstruck for the second time.. i realized how people need not be that selfish about everything, most especially in terms of loving.. hmm. some might think this sounds corny and all.. but one thing that keeps on bugging me these days is that i can never be too happy without leaving selfishness behind.. i mean, how can a person be contented with what he has? or can a person really find contentment in his life? personally, i would always place my head over my heart (physically,it cannot be changed) but in desicion-making processes, i had to consult my heart first then the final say would be coming from where else but the angel's mind.. i should not be talking nonsense here if it wasn't to kill boredom.. i spent all my time surfing the net not even finishing a single report for physics., now, do i really have the right to say that i'm taking my subjects seriously?.. omg. things are getting worser than i thought. but i always try to be optimistic. so what i really want to say is, kaya ko 'to. so where are we? we're stil here in this complicated world full of strangers and familiar faces where a good heart still resides inside.. (labo?) well, i firmly believes that every human creature still has a good heart within.. whatever people may perceive in them... whoah. serious. by the way, i just discovered an old pal from elem.. hmm.. it's really a great thing to know that you're exactly living in a very small world.. and that leads me to d thought that anything can happen w/ just a blink of an eye.. and anywhere can be a perfect place to live, laugh, and cry. ang baduy ko na.. well, just bear with the angel.. she has lots of stuff stucked and rolling around inside her brain... lol. i gez i shud end this before i might get carried away again and tell you the story of the bird and the fish who fell in love w/ each other.. (sounds familiar?u bet.) i would just like to end this entry with a quote from my old pal's blog w/c i find very interesting to ponder on.. its originally from Charlie McCarthy: "Ambition is a poor excuse for not having sense enough to be lazy."

ciao!

Derecho!

2005-07-30T15:16:00.000+08:00

wuhoo.. we won! after much perspiration & cut-classes.. it paid off folks! Yep-3x! Congratz to Aimee, David, Dex and Mon! They put out a great fight among others (still, the other candidates deserve a big hands for it). The election week was really exhausting yet filled with excitement and bloopers.. yup, you read it right.. there were a handful of punchlines passed from one person to another, chit-chatting about every party's gimmicks and all that other stuff.. but hey, at the end of the day, it really wasn't about for winning.. it is for honest and sincere service for us, dlsu students. hmm.. am i ryt? well, i guess having three competing parties was really an awesome sight for me.. despite the fact that i voted derecho, i still consider the other candidates the best among the best of their blocks.. i mean, their credentials say it all.. it just goes to prove that dlsu froshies are really hard to beat.. they are unique in their own, they simply rock! anywayz, before i get paid for these (just kidding), i wonder why i felt quite uneasy for the past few days.. maybe, i was just really preoccupied for a lot of things especially my grades.. oh my.. i haven't been this upset than before.. i never worry about that.. but now, a lot has changed. and still changing.. sigh. the angel's efforts aren't still enough for her to hop up to the next term.. i really pray i would not be seeing myself crammed up again.. i never wanted that to happen.. thankz to my ever-supportive blockmates and to my friends who never fail to boost up my energy and make me feel that life is always a journey of purpose. I thank my girlfriends who always push me up whenever i say, "haay, depressed ako ngyn.." or something like, "ayoko nah.. uulitin ko nnnman?! eh na-edit ko na yun ehh..".. they always show me that even if we haven't been together for so long, they still reach out and tries to accept me as me.. well, the angel does it otherwise though.. sometimes, i hate myself trying to be hyper.. labo? well, sometimes it feels good.. more often than not, it doesn't. i know you won't understand. just forget it. DLSU will be playing against FEU tomorrow.. i can say it will be a scream-till-u-can game.. i imagine huge crowd of La Sallian and Tamaraws yelling and cursing each other's team! hehe.. lOl. anyway, i wish i could watch it live but there's no room for me to be selfish enough to enjoy while my family is waiting for me at home.. i miss them every single day.. sigh. back to the game, i hope the ARCHERS will win. To the Tamaraws, good luck.. as for now, i want to relax for a few hours and watch a very nice movie.. yez... very nice huh... i believe so.. btw, i just watched My Little Bride, (a korean flick made for hopeless romantics like me) at Gladys' pad with of course, Philipp, Bianca, Paola, Grace and Kresh.. It was definitely a feel-good movie.. didn't i mention that i get easily attached to a certain character in a movie especially if the story really knocks me off.. whoah.. i must be so-o crazy.. watch it, you'd probably agree with me.. if you're like the angel.. hmm.. gez i have to go.. nice week.. prayin' for wonderful weeks ahead..

ciao!

at long last..

2005-07-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

yipee.. has anything changed though? lol. today's day is all about spilled milk, i mean cake. hehe. today, i hardly noticed his existence. today, i had a wonderful chat with my bez online.. today, i flunked my accounting test.. i believed so. but hey, it's not yet the end of my Accounting world.. really, it entails a lot of effort from someone who would want to finish it in three years and a half.. including the angel who's been trying to push herself to the limit.. beyond boundaries.. still, i didn't feel like so much of enjoying it.. i think, i should stop feeling sorry for myself and just start to regain my real enthusiasm before i have taken a glimpse of that figure.. my physics midterm grade.. so much for a late-comer.. the angel promised to wake up earlier, dress quicker, and walk faster than before.. now, aren't that hard? sigh. i should've known these before.

but, i am here.
already here.
& i am (bet you) getting there.. really getting there...

ciao!

just tryin'..

2005-07-26T16:23:00.000+08:00

hope this one will start to work na.. i'm so-o excited to get started w/ this.. just plainly looking on someone else's blog makes me so damn envious.. whoah.. sounds not good huh.. just kidding.. anyway, i still have lots of tasks to do and i can't figure out why i still have TIME for these.. hehe.. ciao! Godspeedz.

..at least..

2005-07-14T15:37:00.000+08:00

a whole new perspective.

i guess, that says it all..

it's all for now.

Emotions are pouring out like the rain that never stops..

what could be a long and winding journey..

revisions

change of plans..

term two 06-07

soo like this song.. :)

if i believe..

;(

Thankful enough.

really not quite.

this.

rain rain don't go away..

la la la..

so..

take it back.

whatever.

haaay.

getting over.

memos of yesterday..

starting off..

'coz its you and me.

impressions...impressions..

e.n.u.m.e.r.a.t.e

can i just stop and rest awhile..

battle of the G.

along came accounting..

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

rewind.

for 3*

back to reality..

back at zero.

Underneath It All

*two thousand six.*

H A P P Y H O L I D A Y S!

push.

what's happening?

pinKie adela and the laughing organs..

"..when november ends.."

neon

23

can't get enuf..

blue sky..

its a continuation.. or is it really?

pa pa ra pa pa..

soundtripping..

yei!

that stare..

soundtrack galore..

soundtrack galore..

soundtrack galore..

four-day break!

i feel so low.

whew.

yeah i know, i'm sorry..

xentee mode

past.past.past.

it's gon

that's how it goes.

Currently Playing...

i hate myself for wanting him this way.

How to lose a Guy in Three Months..

Let Go and Grow!

erased.

Animo!

Everytime you walk by, I see love in your eyes..

C-31's Dolphin Dance Craze.

Yun yun eh.

getting emotional.

Derecho!

at long last..

just tryin'..

..at least..

two thousand six.